I was a free spirit flowing in the wind, at first it was calm but now times have become rough, i don't have a sense of direction, im blind and being taken for a ride through storms and i thought that was behind me..after the after-matt until i flowed through the occasional ocean, ocean, oh-cean, i was better...i was free and released...until politics bombarded the air...
if you lay with important figures it will only show you how little you are
and when i laid with this figure, his figure, his figure was whole...beyond what i have yet to accomplish...i was only apart of your happiness for a moment in time...but you dragged me in as if i was meant to be there forever, i now know what your followers see
I didn't care, knowing of you was fine...but i never heard the most beautiful voice which at the time was associated with the most beautiful word, the first thing you said to me in 1 word...my name...at that alone...you did your work, you single handedly took down years of walls put up, knocked down tough barriers, with a single word you stole me heart
and its not fair! i was supposed to be free and fine like i was, and finally i was over and won a great war with myself...without notice you started another one. I had no more than a few weeks with my newly founded freedom, and this war was unlike the others i did not put up a fight, i gave in...retreated and surrendered.
I know i was your prey, i know you hunted me down...but for what? did you know what ive been through. I could be stronger now...and as you told me the story of your 6month insecurity and loneliness i was there, the first girl in a while to be enjoying your presence, to be wanting to make you happy...ive succeeded in that but for what? I want to come across those grey eyes, stare into them and start over. You seemed genuine, and to an extent you are....
but seeing how happy you are now, only makes me realizes how much i contributed to you well being and state of mind...but not in a good way, as a stepping stone
and i know you look back, to the politics of it all, after seeing the empty space by your bed, and know that the wind brought me into your direction and you saw something in me...more than anyone else to notice that i was the one you'd keep until you were sent off. So as the wind was too strong for me and sent me into another storm and you in the other direction...i know it promises to bring me back on track...and you on your way, but though time heals all, storms are beautifully sad and no one knows where they will end up. And it saddens me to think that this wind will separate us forever, and i wont get another chance...to be as happy as you is a dream, to be happy with you is a wish and a memory
Im in a storm im not supposed to be in but if it sends me back to you, i will go through it all...again and again.
the sea is coming close and will direct me into more storms and the after-matt brought me to you...i want to end up with you. Presidents don't compare to the believers you have...you could change all...in a single kiss...you could change minds...including my own...
when you lay again, clouds will clear and from here on out..forecast says its nothing but sunny skies and a chance to fall in love
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