wild side v sanity
I take photos, write poems, make videos
I want to accomplish all my goals
i like to and dreams stay crazy busy
im an overloaded work a holic
spontaneous crazy weird
driven passionate successful
I find myself ruined
I find others ruined
by love
their pleasure taken away
and replaced by pain
or worse
replaced with nothing
Nothingness
They feel nothing
when they are kissed, hugged or touched
Nothingness
when they Lust, love, or fuck
Why bother to indulge in intimacy?
Why bother in letting others in
in your heart and in your mind
or even inside of you
when you know for a fact you will feel nothing
if anything
I declare of vow of self love
not sexually
but personally
I declare
I am in a relationship with myself
we are having problems
but I am willing to work them out
I am married to myself
and for better or for worse
I will try to love myself
though this wandering eye
may want to stray
may want cheat and lie
I will do my best
to listen to myself
and be by myself
Until I find the best
of the best
of all the rest
When 3 years of lust turns into a potential scenario
where sex, youth, and infidelity combine
to make for a string of wrong turns and dirty minds
In this room, where I confide
in you in which I wish you were in me
To discuss the negatives of my life
as you look upon my body, with those aged eyes
I barely know who you are
and you want me bare
Like a scene from a movie
Ill swipe all desk supplies onto the floor
a locked room, a closed door
committing sins, tempting tease
With our eyes, we are wrong
with our passion, our movement
our lust remains strong
but that day, where we act on our wrong will be in our hearts
because we don't mean no harm
treating me like a child even though you'd love me like a women
Mister trickster with a career and a wife
I do feel guilty but it's unfair
you have a child and another life
When you leave this room
our 30 minutes of innocense ends
when you enter your car to drive
home and kiss all those who make you feel alive
But for a moment this young girl tickles your fancy
in this room you wish you could have thee
office space with enough room to hide secrets
enough consequences to never say a word and keep this
forever an idea
and never a reality
We used to be lovers
we used to be
we used to
We used to be Lovers
we did
we used to
We used to be
We used to be lovers
we used to be
we used to
we use to do anything but love
We used to be best friends
we used to be friendly
we used to be everything but be in love
We used to be soul mates
we used to go on dates
We used to do eveything but be in love
We used to be lovers
we used to be
we used to
We used to be Lovers
we did
we used to
We used to be
We used to be lovers
we used to be
we used to
we use to do anything but love
We used to be phone sex
we used to be endless
We used to be eveything but in love
We used to be romance
we used to be content
We used to be everything but in love
We used to be lovers
we used to be
we used to
we use to do anything but love
to want to dry up and wither away
and after so long
that pain
that pain
that pain doesn't see to go away
though the tears
they dry up and shrivle away
Like everyone telling you
it will all go away
but... it doesn't
it lingers and stays
hovering around every dark corner
every drunken haze
every lovers craze
For you to come up to me and tell me your soul, letting me know. That after so long, you're letting me know, that your will to go on, your will to live... you have none
well i feel no pity
and no pity fills me
Telling me, letting me know, that intoxicated as you are, you wouldn't mind riding off that hill in your car. well i feel no pity
I tell them I know how you must feel because i felt it too
But apparently I know nothing if that feeling is in you
It's been a year later and you still feel the same
sad, miserable with nothing left to gain
I tell him: you have to go on and be you. live you
don't live for others anymore, you just have to live
but I see it in their glossed over eyes
they've lost the fight
with over a year later they still just want to cry
over that person who will never care to know if they did, or if they didn't
I have no pity
But
How could I say, such cruel cruel words
when all their heart was taken away
How could I say to keep trecking on their way
when almost a year later
that feeling i have for you
still hasn't gone away
how could I say
what if I told you I feel the same as felt that lonely december day
almost a year ago
i still feel the same
Those their they've left but the feelings still strong
I too have to just live on
this battle is not meant to be won
As time goes by
quickly past our eyes
one must realize
that one must fill time
with pleasure
responsibility
regrets
and spontaneity
Be Loud, Be Free and be You
at all times
I find now and days the luster that shined down on all us us
when we were born
grow to fade
fade to a shade of grey
once our eyes were wide open to the world
now turns the other way
the dreams we had, the hope inside of all
have been lost and forgotten
apathetic and rotten
I stumble upon more beings just getting through life
rather than living their life
day by day by day
the same way all day
afraid to go after what's theirs
afraid to follow their heart
the things that made people glow now terrify those who refuse to go forth
I for one will always be true to myself
be myself
at least most of the time
and if that means having insane goals, dreaming too big that others laugh at
telling me I'm not realistic
that i need to be brought back to earth
I tell them no!
no matter how hard the struggle may be
I will not be you
I will not be another lost soul
lost inside a world who let their dreams go
Promise me, promise yourself
I will not live a world of what if
Promise me, promise yourself
I'd rather die doing what I want
why wish for a life you want
when you can reach out and grab it
Most of us will just let life pass by
very few of us will actually live our life
I have yet to loose my wandering wide eyes
don't settle, never settle
Terrifying? yes. but everything new always is
I don't want to play it safe
I don't want to be realistic
I just want to exude the essence that is
me
after all
all great people didn't just sit arums and wait for success
all great people didn't think twice about going after their goals and dreams
all great people never lost that spark they had
even when beaten battered and withered
and neither should you
At first we started learning about about CO BRANDING
Co Branding - Combining the resources of two in individual blah blah.
Co Branding increases your sales. You get the best of both worlds from different target markets and for LESS! Oh! and while your getting a larger target audience YOU save money, like those commercials say... but never really do. And this new thing they're saying:
To be Environmentally Friendly
Okay now, got that down. what's next? POSITIONING :
Positioning has come to mean the process by which marketers try to create an image or identity in the minds of their target market for its product, brand, or organization.
They want people to think about their product
examples:
( Kleenex has replaced the word Tissue. What You are saying is a Brand )
( Tiger Associated with Golf ) Tiger is Golf is people's minds
( Coke rather saying Soda, Pop, Pepsi ) "can I have a Coke"
you get the idea...
Why or rather How does Tiger Woods get to keep some of his sponsors after the whole Scandal. In MY small Definition Tiger somehow found and slept with 4 or 5?? uglier women rather than sleep with his Super HOT WIFE because of this new trending addiction called sex addiction. (seriously though Vanity Fair was not impressive). and thats the mistresses with makeup crew in the background. I'm scared they might come after me now)
Nike kept tiger because they established a deep connection with his brand. and his father's Brand. Tigers Brand was connected to his father and when his father kicked the bucket He came out with a Bang! Except, more in the sense of Gang Bang. but not really. but maybe who knows... tiger must have more secrets than just these chicks if he is in fact an "addict"
Thus making his new commercial controversial
Its contains two goodies: his father & the Sex Scandal
It's made for us to believe that his father is discussing about the controversy, as if he were still alive. When in reality the actual video is not about that, clearly. Tiger using his father to relaunch his Brand and swipe it clean so everyone can just go on, because I know we are all pretty sick of it. And Golf ratings dropped majorly so the people who want to forgive will (the fans, golf lovers etc) and the people who didn't like him before REALLLLYYY wont like him now
(video we watched in class)
Immediately you see Nike on his hat and shirt. boom boom boom! A Sorry look on his face while his father speaks to him and it trigers an emotional spot.
my point was That He Gets to keep his Sponsors when Michael Phelps Loses all of his except for Subway, so now his beautiful mold of a human being has to do those stupid commercials all because he was a 19 year old, smoking a bong... in Canada none the Less!!!! Not Fair at All! what harm is he doing?
So this was cool to watch early this morning. The Day after his huge Relaunch to Reposition himself, Let's hope that 2nd time is a charm and that there will be no more third chance to relaunch your career. But the best for last. Last for me because I think the remainder of my class I was in shock of the News I am just about to explain.
THE DEATH OF THE INTERNET
Verizon, Google, YouTube, all of those companies voted NO on Net Neutrality. Which means The Internet as we know is, will be gone. These Companies want to have a private faster internet and everyone else will get basic internet which would be similar to dial up and have no access to videos, no special features, no games. The Future could possibly see Internet Package deals in the near future. Just as TV has done. If we dont buy these Paackages the rest of us will get the basic dial up version. Remember that? I sure do. A slower and more restricted Internet. All because these Richer companies want to get richer.
So as I was being told this. That the Internet could be change in just a matter of 6 months, she predicted (Linda Solomon) I was having a horrendous panic attack. SHocked and in just this awe of unbelief telling myself "no this can't be true" "this isn't going to happen", only to be told that yeas it's is, and that it's already happened. CALL THE GOVERNMENT CALL THE GOVERNMENT! well guess what little ones... It is the government. Congress also voted against Net Neutrality.SO now these companies can do something like make those Internet package deals that could cost a fortune, and by could I mean definitely.
But, you can't blame these business's. Their Mission, their Jobs are to increase company profit. It's a Smart Business move but really shitty for us. If these companies don't make a profit they go bankrupt, people get fired. The Future Looks Gloomy; for these corporations with the Internet around. Its open access is valuable for everyone. Larger companies will fall or have to come to the realization that with open access they will have to change their finances since they will loose their markets.
WHile still in shock I came to the realization of myself. I, Karla Mera, am addicted. Addicted to the Internet.
Karla Mera Presents The Newest Addiction Craze:
Internet Addiction
one who is in fear of loosing the Internet, with symptoms of sudden panic attacks, shortness in breath, prone to fainting, crying heavily, shaking, withdrawals, Possibility to end in debt for unpaid Internet Bills. Has a heavy desire and belief that one needs the Internet to survive.
I recovering my shock, realized i am addicted. I love my Pandora.com and Facebook and YouTube, i could go on. The Very companies that are right about to screw me! I didn't know what I would do. I barely have any music in my Itunes, My photo's are mostly all online, I stay in connect with friends and family, I do my homework online. I use the Internet all the time. So as I am still coming to terms with this, I plan on making a video myself discussing net neutrality which will hopefully be posted in the near future.
but there's hope and i Think his fella can hopefully make this happen
And when I thought this pain wouldn't end
it has
the heart is resilient
bash it smash it tear it apart, it will always come together again
I've changed though
minus the fact that i dont have sex anymore
I pick and choose my battles
like before
i would set "goals" and then i would reach them
im doing that agian
also reinventing the cock tease
I have a newly found appreciation for blunt and real people, as i am one of them. I understand a lot more about "love" and if you ever read "Romance and Love" by Hooks it explains the difference between Love and Romance and why romance is a fantasy and Love is a choice. READ IT! but I agree. what i wanted before was this fairy tale (which doesn't exist) and I probably chose the worst person for that because he was such a dick (in a good way) very real very tell you how it is guy
so....
I understand now
I cant be lost again in this fantasy world make believing love is actually real
I have to choose to be in love
well about 2 weeks ago as i was recovering and in a vulnerable stage of no longer being hurt but looking for that rebound
i found my rebound
a charming very attractive blonde chill dude
very sexy
i was into him
but i was blinded and jaded again because my friends were feeding my brain nonsense
ive met this guy before
why was i not attracted to him before?
People were telling me things like "he's think you're hot" "he wants to bang you" and stuff he'd say, and all that made me go crazy
i was flustered
and quite smitten but then brought right back down to earth when on the 2nd and last week of my vulnerability i saw him with another girl
and i was hurt
not because i actually liked him
but because i felt like a fool
i thought and made up in my head this idea of romance again and realized I don't like him i like the idea of him. a status thing really aka another notch under my belt. SO after I was brought back down to earth
what was the real problem here? i didn't and still don't want a relationship! I've finally figured it out....I just want "dehumpnik" real good, real bad
and it's hard to come around good sex
especially after you've cared for someone for so long, i know....i tried about 3 times and all the guys sucked... damn... so i'm just gonna stick to myself... work up my men... and then pounce, like they've never been pounced on before
hahaha
in order from hot to hotter
come on ladies... what i am trying to say is shut those legs, and aim high! real high
oh! and also, never let a guy have the title of sleeping with 2 girls in 2 days, it boosts their confidence in the worst way... tempt them then pull away
ALWAYS TRY TO BE THE GIRL THEY CANT GET
AND IF YOU ARE UNDER THE AGE OF 25 AND YOU THINK YOU'RE IN LOVE
YOU'RE NOT
AND YOU'RE TOO CAUGHT UP
just chill, and hang, and cock tease... it's a lot more fun the next day too when they only want you more instead of the awkward passing by each other moment
