TIme does Heal all

And when I thought this pain wouldn't end
it has
the heart is resilient
bash it smash it tear it apart, it will always come together again

I've changed though
minus the fact that i dont have sex anymore
I pick and choose my battles
like before
i would set "goals" and then i would reach them
im doing that agian
also reinventing the cock tease

I have a newly found appreciation for blunt and real people, as i am one of them.  I understand a lot more about "love" and if you ever read "Romance and Love" by Hooks it explains the difference between Love and Romance and why romance is a fantasy and Love is a choice. READ IT! but I agree.  what i wanted before was this fairy tale (which doesn't exist) and I probably chose the worst person for that because he was such a dick (in a good way) very real very tell you how it is guy
so....
I understand now
I cant be lost again in this fantasy world make believing love is actually real
I have to choose to be in love

well about 2 weeks ago as i was recovering and in a vulnerable stage of no longer being hurt but looking for that rebound
i found my rebound
a charming very attractive blonde chill dude
very sexy
i was into him
but i was blinded and jaded again because my friends were feeding my brain nonsense
ive met this guy before
why was i not attracted to him before?
People were telling me things like "he's think you're hot" "he wants to bang you" and stuff he'd say, and all that made me go crazy
i was flustered
and quite smitten but then brought right back down to earth when on the 2nd and last week of my vulnerability  i saw him with another girl
and i was hurt
not because i actually liked him
but because i felt like a fool
i thought and made up in my head this idea of romance again and realized I don't like him i like the idea of him.  a status thing really aka another notch under my belt. SO after I was brought back down to earth
what was the real problem here? i didn't and still don't want a relationship! I've finally figured it out....I just want "dehumpnik"  real good, real bad
and it's hard to come around good sex
especially after you've cared for someone for so long, i know....i tried about 3 times and all the guys sucked... damn... so i'm just gonna stick to myself... work up my men... and then pounce, like they've never been pounced on before
hahaha
in order from hot to hotter
come on ladies... what i am trying to say is shut those legs, and aim high! real high
oh! and also, never let a guy have the title of sleeping with 2 girls in 2 days, it boosts their confidence in the worst way... tempt them then pull away
ALWAYS TRY TO BE THE GIRL THEY CANT GET
AND IF YOU ARE UNDER THE AGE OF 25 AND YOU THINK YOU'RE IN LOVE
YOU'RE NOT
AND YOU'RE TOO CAUGHT UP

just chill, and hang, and cock tease... it's a lot more fun the next day too when they only want you more instead of the awkward passing by each other moment

in the words of elton john : "the bitch is back"