peru: an out of order nutshell

Well,
I must say after 3 weeks in Peru and enduring 5 plane rides including my first ever (and I, terrified of planes) well, im alive
especially considering i truly believed my last days were ahead of me and i was going to go "La Bamba style"
i arrived there of course very much alive on the outside but without a doubt dead on the inside
what a great time to rediscover my self
who i really was
and my true values
and just my luck i developed a horribly massive stomach virus
which actually started in september but...
my fear of doctors prevented me from getting myself check prior to the trip and god damn well knows im not about to go to the hospital in a different country
but i will eat the food
and drink your water
even though i was advised not to
so not only was i eating very little (up to 1 1/2 meals a day) i ended of puking it all up later that night
it's then i realized i probably have something severly wrong with me and with 3 weeks in peru i did a lot of thinking
I was in a different country for the first time, a country that had a lot to do with my misery and a country where every where you turn everyone is in love. its sickening
and im peruvian
of course not there, there i'm american
anyways...
i saw a lot of peru. probably more than most people will ever in there lifetime,
1. because i am peruvian
2. I have family in peru
my dad was returning after 20 years of not ever going back...20 years of not seeing his brothers and sisters who cant get a visa and will probably never step foot in america. my dad's side of the family who is also living in poverty there. My uncles and aunts still live in the house my dad grew up in which barely has a ceiling, another aunt living in cusco with not hot water. they didnt have much but offered everything to us, especially because for a few days we'd be living with them. in poverty.
at first angry that i couldnt have a "real vacation" , the kinds people have you know on the beach, drinking cocktails and hitting of the hot locals
no i didnt have that. i lived like they did.
as i lived with them, i felt bad for my self and dwelled on my misery
how selfish of me. how completely selfish of me.
also not knowing much spanish i had to learn, especially because my 2 other sister being fucking stuck up cunts themselves ( i love them) didnt feel like speaking spanish at all while being there minus a few words here and there
i dedicated my stay there to mostly speaking soley in spanish. During that time still very much sick. i learned a lot about my newly introduced family, like my cousin willy the artist who makes the most incredible inka sculptures i have ever seen. seriously you can find sculptures anywhere but his had such craftmanship , no flaws i cant even tell you. his sister, an artist as well...made beautiful jewlery. This is what they did to get by.
they just bought a microwave and it was broken because they didnt know they werent allowed to put spoons in it, which when they told us was funny but sad because they probably saved up to get it and will have to save up agan to gte another one.
We also spent most of our time in lima and callao where the streets are flooded with men women & children selling just about everything from candies, sodas to books and garbage bags, even their talent where kids would do flips on the road during red lights. And my dad would recollect of how when he was younger he too did the same thing
My moms side, the part that i saw....well they were rich
my uncle being former mayor who worked along side the president Fugimori
they had maids and chauffers and running hot water
we stayed with my late grandpa's crazy older sister, who i loved but shes a crazy old bat
her neice being my tia neca, who got a nose job at 16 do to her relationships with rich older men (we have that in common/ not the nose job) she now married to a rich brit, that was fun. my family literally wined and dined with rich power moguls from britain and other rich peruvians.
it was odd
seeing two different worlds of peru

i still have to go to the doctors
and as always i lost my train of thought
but peru well, i say get some family in peru and really see for yourself what peru is all about


3 weeks in Peru
1 week stomach virus
1 week flu/ cold
2 days altitude sickness
the rest of the time revovering